cold is really active

therefore, it was especially tough to get up this morning.

while chanting, i really tried to be attentive.
ravindra svarupa prabhu says, if we try to chant attentive, this is already namabasa, the clearing stage.

i must say, i head to clear my nose more often, then i was able grab my mind and be more attentive.

for me, still, spiritual life seems to be like i have heavy jaundice. for someone, who has jaundice, sugar remains bitter. the more the desease decreases, the more sugar will taste sweet.

although, i heard this very often, i still like this example very much.

although the words of the acaryas are scientific:

hmm, sombody knows a scientific evidence, well... from the karmis..?...;-)

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why give up, just go on

ok, i must admit, it was tough this morning. i felled like: "NO, TODAY NOT, I WILL REMAIN IN MY TAMABAG. I HAVE A GOOD REASON, I AM SICK.

i am sick.

anyway.

reminds me, once, when i was a brahmacari, i hat fever and we were in the midst of the prabhupada marathon. i went out anyway, and distributed a caitanya caritamrita set.

well ok, if you are sick you should stay in bed and not travel, right? i remember, one sankirtan devotee later told me even, that i am a fanatic.

i was not too sick then.

i am not too sick yet.

it feels so good just to stand up

and please krishna and prabhupada.

i remember a class of romapada swami. - and that s the most important point of the class, i remember -, he said: " a devotee knows, when he is safe."

i must say, i feel much more safe now, just by raising early and trying to chant hare krishna.

i m not talking about the ten offences yet.

I would like to discuss this in the next posts.. (my mind this morning was trying to churn nektar in thinking about how to do business on e-bay))

how to overcome distraction, which is the root cause of all the other offences,

this is definitely worth to discuss, i think.

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sick, sick, sick

third day of my experiment and i am sick. i have a severe cold, in fact a bronchitis.
the doctor told me to stay in bed.

good reason to not get up and chant my rounds right?

well it would be.

today, i make the decision to raise.

raise at three am.

raise against maya.

jayapataka, victory flag.

KRISHNA, please help me.

day three, sick

i made it today. at 3:am, rose up, although it was really tough.

i am about to become sick. already feel the scratching in my throat. feel weak and dull.

hello dear cold, my teacher. thanks for showing me, that this body is a burdon.

how long will i squeeze out nektar from this combination of mucus, bones and stool?

i am an idiot no doubt.

the rounds this morning were really bad. i only thought about finishing them. i went to work, stayed there for about 30 minutes and said good bye.

try to rest again now.

on the last day of my vow, i work from 3:30 pm up to midnight. how then will i rise at three am?  maya has an easy job with me.

maya sucks.

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day two, come on mind, come on!

i got up at 3:00 this morning,

chanted my rounds, took me 1h:02, not too bad.

again, there is this happiness, that i did somthing, which hopefully is pleasing prabhupada and krishna.
a) raising up early
b) chanting hare krishna

the last round especially was inspiring. it gave hope, that i can go deeper into the holy name.
it was like a final spurt. "my dear mind, be more focused, come on!"

if you would ask me, how i feel this morning about my chanting, i would say in one sentence.

there is hope, again, there is hope.

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day 1, i did it

well, wasn t too easy to get up at three.

yesterday evening my wife amrita had to to go to a kindergarten meeting. so she came back at 9.30 p.m. we talked until 10 and i fell asleep at around 10:30. unfortunately i woke up at 11.15, since my wife came back from a walk, where she finished her rounds. amrita took a shower, and wasn t too quite.
i woke up from the noise she made and could not sleep again until 12:30 a.m. haribol.

somhow then, i woke up five minutes before the alarm clock ringed. it seems, the supersoul is already involved in my project.

i was so tired, that between 02:55 and 03:00 i fell asleep again.

then the alarm clock rang and i pushed the snooze button, only once at least.

so i got up at 3:05.

startet my rounds at 03:20 and finished at 04:17.

wasn t too bad. no highlights and no really completely spaced out moments.

was glad, that i did it.

day one done.

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day 1

ok, thats it.

i will start tomorrow morning at three a.m. and see what it is like to chant my rounds before 6 o`clock.
sounds funny?

well, i am not a temple devotee. i used to be, but now i am a grhasta and VERY busy. i work in shifts and have practically NO sadhana. so i try to raise at three a.m and chant eight rounds. that s it. eight rounds before six a.m.

why eight rounds? because. my earliest shift is at six. in order to keep up a sadhana, i have to raise at three, chant up to four, then take a little nap and prepare prasadam for work.

this is an experiment, which i will do at least for thirty days.

eight rounds before six o`clock.

all right. let s see, what it is like....i will post here every day and write down my experiences. i am very glad to receive some comments for encourgement....

hare krishna!

your servant
dandadhrk dasa

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