damned!

sanatana goswami recommends, that we chant clearly and loud.

if we do that, than the day will also be very clear.

srimati mataji explains in her japa seminar in that connection, that at the end of the day, we can actually measure how our chanting in the morning really was.

it s all about attention. the hear opens, if we try to chant attentive. PLEASE RADHA, PLEASE KRISHNA HELP ME!

then the gates of our hearts open, and by chanting, the anarthas one after another hopefully disappear.

i am writing this after just having chanted my rounds succsesfully.

prabhupada once said after finishing his rounds: "now i can do any damned thing."

now my mind seems to become a little more clear after this mornings chanting.

now, i am ready to do any damned thing, which actually for me means going to work.

hopefully, todays chanting will echo through the day.

it seems, life becomes a little more easy by chanting hare krishna.

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false confidence

false confidence means, you go to school, the teacher shows you a b c and you think or you act, like you know the whole alphabet.

i definitely don t want to appear like somwhat the teacher of the vaishnavas and the teacher of haridada thakura anyway.

i think, i am rather more than like a postman with bad habits, who writes a little about what great souls say.

why is that?

well, todays chanting was like i was chanting one of the first rounds of my life. i did not even count my beads correctly. did this ever happen to you?
somtimes, i even loose my beads.

i m a beginner.

how tricky maya is, and that is just the top of the iceberg. maya is the material energy. she is so expert in grabbing us.

only by surrendering to krishna, we will be able to conquer maya.

again, i am just a simple postman.

prabhupada says, that taking up krishna consciousness is declaring war on maya.

HEA VY....!

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check this out!

these are the two lectures, which i highly recommend, if you want to increase the quality or your chanting.

srimati mataji focuses very much on the root cause of offensive chanting.
pramada, which means "very mad".

inattantion while chanting the holy name.

you can download these lectures on your ipod or any mp3 player.


today i felt really tired. my shift was two days from 1:30 pm - 10:00 pm. when i went to sleep, it was about midnight. getting up at four was not too easy, but i made it. i was blissful, and completed my rounds at 05:20 am.

when i wrote, that getting up early is nice because, it is just you and the mind, i meant, it s "just" you and the mind, in a way, that the mind and you, might be already enough challenge...

i have not fully realized it, but i like the expression, that the mind is our enemy.

which means, we are constantly living with our enemy!

chanting is meant to control the mind, which means to transform our enemy into our friend again.

what a task, to make your enemy your friend again.

srimati says, that the holy name is always shiny and blissful. ALWAYS!

interesting thought, that it is our material covering, which is filtering the nectar of the holy name.

prabhupada says, that chanting hare krishna is like tuning in a radio chanel. once you tune in, you can hear, what s going on outside.

perceive  KRISHNA!



 

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the confidential heart tester

this is from srimati matajis japa seminar.

it will help us, to see, from where we are actually starting in our endevaour to chant hare krishna purely. don t worry, if the result is disgusting...;-) it s just about the reality, we are facing.

best is, you print these questions out, and make a tick for every answer you consider YES, that would fit to you.


do you see any of the following in yourself?

a)

1) indecisiveness,

2) envy,

3) attachment to things not related to krishna,

inability to keep vows,

4) no programs, rules and regulations

5) desire for recognition

6) iconsistency in your endevaour to become krishna conscious

7) a tendency to enjoy material facilities

8) regular struggle with the mind and senses

9) false confidence and enthusiasm

10) inability to overcome bad habits

11) desire for material facility

12)propensity to cheat and find fault

13) desire for liberation

14) a taste for sensual pleasure

15) interest in mystic powers

16) desire for heavenly comforts


b) do you ever comit

nama aparadha?

seva aparadha?

vaishnava aparadha?

offence to other entities?

c) do you somtimes wonder, who you really are, what krishnas position as the supreme personality of godhead really is?

do you somtimes feel unsure about the goal and process of bhakti, what is favourable and unfavourable for your advancement in krishna concsciousness?

when you chant, do you somtimes feel sleepy?

experience distraction?

feel indifference, disinterested, not pay attention?


Then please answer yourself the following:

is your score five or less?

ten or less?

fifteen or less?


when i went through this questions, i thought: "ghee, i am not an absolute beginner, i am somthing like a maha absolute beginner.

that s just, how things are.....

still feel happy about it. when you start a journey, there is always a place to begin.

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in with the needle, out with....?

i tend to say: "in with the needle, out with the..... club.

Even with my experiment, i prefer to say: "in with the needle, and let s see, what s going on.

my friends from gournitimes recommended me to take more care of my spelling.

sorry, dear devotees for spelling mistakes.

what about my chanting?

still motivated and inspired.

peace of heart, feels like 50% more

peace of mind: feels like at 30& more

amazing. somtimes i do yoga on my computer. (there are a many excercises on you tube.) very simple but soooo effective.

like my little experiment. only eight rounds, but such an impact!
don t get me wrong, i am still a smalltimer, have not yes seesn krishna face to face...;-)

but again, chanting is nice. chanting in the morning ist 50 - to 75% better than during the day.

it s just you and the mind. only you and the mind which you have to take back from imaginary sense gratification or planing the day, or - you might know, what i mean.

i just downloaded again srimati matajis japa seminar on my ipod. i let you know more, when i get a little more into listening them...

thanks for hanging on...

hare krishna!

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alarms and other disturbances

i don t know, how many alarm clocks i had in the last years. there were many.

i actually had a fancy one from a german company named dugena. for some karmic reason, it fell down too many times. i had to buy a new one, unfortunately.

because, what i liked of my dugena clock was, that the alarm signal was so loud, you HAD to wake up. i think, they builded this thing especially for old people, who might have already loss in hearing

last janmastami, when i met the devotees in our project in goloka dhama, it was so purifying for me, that i HAD to reastablish my chanting.
i was so much beside my shoes, that it simply did not fit. i felt like on an other planet. (which it actually is, it is non fifferent from the spiritual sky).
i had become so much materialistic, that i actually felled ashamed in the association of the vasihnavas. at the same time, i felt very much the presence of radha madana mohana, the presiding deities.
i see it as a sign of krishna and the vaishnavas, that my janmastami visit was like a loud alarm of my old dugena clock.

There is the last verse of Chaitanya Mahaprabhus siksastakam:

ashlishya va pada-ratam pinashtu mam
adarshanan marma-hatam karotu va
yatha tatha va vidadhatu lampato
mat-prana-nathas tu sa eva naparah

I know no one but Krsna as my Lord, and He shall remain so even if He handles me roughly by His embrace or makes me brokenhearted by not being present before me. He is completely free to do anything and everything, for He is always my worshipful Lord, unconditionally. All Glories to Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu!

I felt your rough embrace my lord.

it definetely reminded me to become more serious, if i don t want to remain in my self constructed material stool pit.

JIVA JAGO, JIVA JAGO! WAKE UP SPIRIT SOUL, WAKE UP!


i have a new alarm clock now,

it is more soft.

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safe the planet by chanting

i just stumbled into a blog, where a bunch of swiss quys circambulate the world with a solartaxi.
whererever they go, they interview people, who are in charge of environment saving, stuff like that.

they basically say, if they just use hybrid cars, they can safe the planet.

but they won t. they are missing the point. it is not ilfes purpose to safe this planet.

it s to become krishna conscious and to go back to godhead.

trying to safe the planet is another form of: "i am the doer. i can do it.

this is called maya.

first self victory, then public victory.

and order to become self victorious, we have to know, what is the self.

basically, that knowledge means, that we are not this body. prabhuapda very often stressed this point.

spiritual life starts with: "we are not this body."

how can we know, that we are not this body?

by chanting: HARE KRISHNA HARE KRISHNA KRISHNA KRISHNA HARE HARE, HARE RAMA HARE RAMA RAMA RAMA HARE HARE

prabhupada would say, it is as easy as that. simple for the simple.

now, after a whole days work in the office, i was thinking, that i am not so great and not such an outstanding person with my little experiment of chanting hare krishna.

just one hour out of 24.

i have to start somwhere.

i will keep going. i am about to become fired up.

what about you? come on, give it a try.

actually, it is really nice.

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